3.  My new years plan:

I don’t know what it means either what I’m doing for new years or my goals for new years. But I’m gonna spend my new years with my close ones to end and start a new year with. My goal is to get my shit straight & focus on myself instead of others.

4. A letter to a person I grew apart from this year.

(I grew apart from two people this year that meant a lot to me at a point.)

Dear kn,

I know we had our differences but as much as I hate to say it, it’s not the same anymore. But I suppose when people grow, they grow apart.  We passed that phase of calling each other sisters, but to come to think of it we kinda are. We’re the kind of people that are so much alike and yet fight so often. There will always be a spot for you in my life regardless of our situation now. I miss you and I hope you’re doing okay.

Dear nn,

Two years ago, you looked after me as my big brother. We used to spend every weekend together doing jackshit. We stopped talking for awhile and reconnected once I got out of my relationship of a year and a half. It felt nice to be in your presence again and updating each other on our lives and what we missed out on. We began to hang out almost everyday just like the old days. Honestly, I don’t even know how everything came to how we are now. I really do care for you & miss you. But I guess things do change and we’re not the same person we were back then. I hate how we are, knowing that we can’t talk the way we used to or hang out like how we used to. I just learned to accept our situation instead of always trying to fix it. I can’t say that it’s anyone’s fault but mine because I let it happen. I was so insecure and thought I couldn’t find my sense of belonging. After it all happen, it immensely changed me. Now, I could hold my own ground. Now, I don’t depend on anyone for anything. Now, I can simply brush off my problems without overthinking. Now, I’m a much wiser & strong-minded person. & I thank you for that. Although we went our seperate ways, you really did change me. Through the tears and laughter, I’m glad I spent every moment of every memory with you.